Ages since I got a letter! So send me a letter. You, if you will. Will you?
Your smile rubs the signs of sorrow off my face and you make me smile...just like magic!
Purity and bliss.
So smile and write me a letter.
:)

Yes, it hurts. It shouldn't but it does.

There's a little sad song inside me, that plays according to its whims and moods. It can start playing anywhere, anytime...on rainy nights,in moments of intense happiness,during lonely strolls in the terrace, while reading a beautiful poem...and I let it play.
My song has the melody of a pan-flute playing in the distant blue hils on which a scrim of silver mist descends when the orange in the sky deepens into a melancholic violet. I ride on the waves of its notes, plunge inside myself or surrender to a state of nebulousness and let the world fuse into me.
I like happy songs and love people who sing them for me. But no happy song could ever replace this little sad song that I have, the one I can never sing, the one that leaves my eyes moist and my throat aching, the one that will never fade away.

I really have nothing to write other than some very mundane facts and an overtly sentimental narrative and dried poempetals...which I will refrain from, for my sake and others'.
Incidentally this is my third attempt at writing a post today.
That's about it.
I am drained but not unhappy and hence not complaining.

You are walking slowly on a black road glistening with rain. At regular intervals yellow light from the tall streetlamps falls on the black road making it shine. A light drizzle touches your skin...amorously. The earphone plugged to your ears is belting out...'Dil se re'.
Suddenly you want to turn your face upwards and close your eyes and let the rain kiss your face gently. Suddenly you want to outstretch your arms and lose yourself. Suddenly you want to mingle your tears with the drops of rain running down you face.
Suddenly it feels like love.

June 2008 is the longest month ever!! It doesn't want to end! :(

Hey you three,
Chances are you guys will never even know I wrote this for you. But now that you all are going away and it'll be ages before I see you again, I just want to tell you I love you all...a lot. So a few lines to each of you.

Sayori- You are one person time will never make me forget. You and I met on the first day of college and stuck together for 3 years, saw a lot together, did a lot together, went through a lot together. We've had differences...glaring ones...but I have always had this feeling that deep down inside we are very alike...you are the worldly-wise, sensible, practical version of my emotional dreamer self...the person I could turn to when I lost my stuff ( admit cards and heart alike). If we were asked to choose from an array of letters you and I would pick up the same ones, make the same words and compose different sentences. You introduced me to Toni Morrison, ways of this world and JUPC. These three years have unravelled you to me little by little...and I know now how you feel what you feel and why you feel. I don't claim to like everything about you...but I understand your logic and your philosophies now, you have always been very sure of which. I haven't told you ever, you are a person with immense potential and I believe you have the right amount of ambition to do justice to it. Shine on Shy.I have so much to tell about you but words aren't the perfect medium. Love you.

Sayak- You are the brother I never had...my best friend, my confidante, my patient listener, my loving counsellor I can not even dare to imagine my days without you. You make me laugh. You irritate me to the point of insanity. You crib. You nag. You behave stupidly.But your philosophy about life amazes me, so do your sense of humour and your keen power of observation. You hardly have a word of praise for my writings but I am a fan of your poems. You have touched my life in a way few have. you are always, always, always there not only when I am down and out but when I am happy and rejoicing. There hasn't passed a day when we haven't fought but we always put them behind us don't we? There's only one thing to ask of you, now that you are going so far away...be my friend always.Love you Doggy.( don't even think of retorting!)

Arko- Hey Baba,you are simply wonderful! Did I ever tell you that? You can't expect me to, can you! what with our mock fights and your Rag-the madgirl motto! Thank God you haven't seen my "dispooted" blog. Thank God you don't search for updates here. Since you'll never stumble upon this blog of mine it's safe to disclose that I feel sad that we hadn't met earlier, I feel sad that you are going away, I feel terrible thinking about the Arkoless adda sessions that will follow and that there will be nobody to pull my leg and send me home fuming and seething. Will miss you horribly. Love you(grudgingly).

Here's to the three of you.
Love
sohini.